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Harbours no worse than razor-shell or crab –

  Though my father recalls carcasses of whales

  Collapsed and gasping, right up to the dunes.

  But tonight such moving sinewed dreams lie out

  In darker fathoms, far beyond the head.

  Astray upon a debris of scrubbed shells

  Between parched dunes and salivating wave,

  I have rights on this fallow avenue,

  A membrane between moonlight and my shadow.

  Limbo

  Fishermen at Ballyshannon

  Netted an infant last night

  Along with the salmon.

  An illegitimate spawning,

  A small one thrown back

  To the waters. But I’m sure

  As she stood in the shallows

  Ducking him tenderly

  Till the frozen knobs of her wrists

  Were dead as the gravel,

  He was a minnow with hooks

  Tearing her open.

  She waded in under

  The sign of her cross.

  He was hauled in with the fish.

  Now limbo will be

  A cold glitter of souls

  Through some far briny zone.

  Even Christ’s palms, unhealed,

  Smart and cannot fish there.

  Bye-Child

  He was discovered in the henhouse where she had confined him.

  He was incapable of saying anything.

  When the lamp glowed,

  A yolk of light

  In their back window,

  The child in the outhouse

  Put his eye to a chink –

  Little henhouse boy,

  Sharp-faced as new moons

  Remembered, your photo still

  Glimpsed like a rodent

  On the floor of my mind,

  Little moon man,

  Kennelled and faithful

  At the foot of the yard,

  Your frail shape, luminous,

  Weightless, is stirring the dust,

  The cobwebs, old droppings

  Under the roosts

  And dry smells from scraps

  She put through your trapdoor

  Morning and evening.

  After those footsteps, silence;

  Vigils, solitudes, fasts,

  Unchristened tears,

  A puzzled love of the light.

  But now you speak at last

  With a remote mime

  Of something beyond patience,

  Your gaping wordless proof

  Of lunar distances

  Travelled beyond love.

  Good-night

  A latch lifting, an edged den of light

  Opens across the yard. Out of the low door

  They stoop into the honeyed corridor,

  Then walk straight through the wall of the dark.

  A puddle, cobble-stones, jambs and doorstep

  Are set steady in a block of brightness.

  Till she strides in again beyond her shadows

  And cancels everything behind her.

  Fireside

  Always there would be stories of lights

  hovering among bushes or at the foot

  of a meadow; maybe a goat with cold horns

  pluming into the moon; a tingle of chains

  on the midnight road. And then maybe

  word would come round of that watery

  art, the lamping of fishes, and I’d be

  mooning my flashlamp on the licked black pelt

  of the stream, my left arm splayed to take

  a heavy pour and run of the current

  occluding the net. Was that the beam

  buckling over an eddy or a gleam

  of the fabulous? Steady the light

  and come to your senses, they’re saying good-night.

  Westering

  in California

  I sit under Rand McNally’s

  ‘Official Map of the Moon’ –

  The colour of frogskin,

  Its enlarged pores held

  Open and one called

  ‘Pitiscus’ at eye level –

  Recalling the last night

  In Donegal, my shadow

  Neat upon the whitewash

  From her bony shine,

  The cobbles of the yard

  Lit pale as eggs.

  Summer had been a free fall

  Ending there,

  The empty amphitheatre

  Of the west. Good Friday

  We had started out

  Past shopblinds drawn on the afternoon,

  Cars stilled outside still churches,

  Bikes tilting to a wall;

  We drove by,

  A dwindling interruption,

  As clappers smacked

  On a bare altar

  And congregations bent

  To the studded crucifix.

  What nails dropped out that hour?

  Roads unreeled, unreeled

  Falling light as casts

  Laid down

  On shining waters.

  Under the moon’s stigmata

  Six thousand miles away,

  I imagine untroubled dust,

  A loosening gravity,

  Christ weighing by his hands.

  from STATIONS (1975)

  Nesting-Ground

  The sandmartins’ nests were loopholes of darkness in the riverbank. He could imagine his arm going in to the armpit, sleeved and straitened, but because he had once felt the cold prick of a dead robin’s claw and the surprising density of its tiny beak he only gazed.

  He heard cheeping far in but because the men had once shown him a rat’s nest in the butt of a stack where chaff and powdered cornstalks adhered to the moist pink necks and backs he only listened.

  As he stood sentry, gazing, waiting, he thought of putting his ear to one of the abandoned holes and listening for the silence under the ground.

  July

  The drumming started in the cool of the evening, as if the dome of air were lightly hailed on. But no. The drumming murmured from beneath that drum.

  The drumming didn’t murmur, rather hammered. Soundsmiths found a rhythm gradually. On the far bench of the hills tuns and ingots were being beaten thin.

  The hills were a bellied sound-box resonating, a low dyke against diurnal roar, a tidal wave that stayed, that still might open.

  Through red seas of July the Orange drummers led a chosen people through their dream. Dilations and engorgings, contrapuntal; slashers in shirt-sleeves, collared in the sunset, policemen flanking them like anthracite.

  The air grew dark, cloud-barred, a butcher’s apron. The night hushed like a white-mothed reach of water, miles downstream from the battle, a skein of blood still lazing in the channel.

  England’s Difficulty

  I moved like a double agent among the big concepts.

  The word ‘enemy’ had the toothed efficiency of a mowing machine. It was a mechanical and distant noise beyond that opaque security, that autonomous ignorance.

  ‘When the Germans bombed Belfast it was the bitterest Orange parts were hit the worst.’

  I was on somebody’s shoulder, conveyed through the starlit yard to see the sky glowing over Anahorish. Grown-ups lowered their voices and resettled in the kitchen as if tired out after an excursion.

  Behind the blackout, Germany called to lamplit kitchens through fretted baize, dry battery, wet battery, capillary wires, domed valves that squeaked and burbled as the dial-hand absolved Stuttgart and Leipzig.

  ‘He’s an artist, this Haw Haw. He can fairly leave it into them.’

  I lodged with ‘the enemies of Ulster’, the scullions outside the walls. An adept at banter, I crossed the lines with carefully enunciated passwords, manned every speech with checkpoints and reported back to nobody.

  Visitant

  It kept treading air, as if it were a ghost with claims on us, precipitating in the heat tremor. Then, released from its distorting mirror,
up the fields there comes this awkwardly smiling foreigner, awkwardly received, who gentled the long Sunday afternoon just by sitting with us.

  Where are you now, real visitant, who vivified ‘parole’ and ‘POW’? Where are the rings garnetted with bits of toothbrush, the ships in bottles, the Tyrol landscapes globed in electric bulbs?

  ‘They’ve hands for anything, these Germans.’

  He walked back into the refining lick of the grass, behind the particular judgements of captor and harbourer. As he walks yet, feeling our eyes on his back, treading the air of the image he achieved, released to his fatigues.

  Trial Runs

  WELCOME HOME YE LADS OF THE EIGHTH ARMY. There had to be some defiance in it because it was painted along the demesne wall, a banner headline over the old news of REMEMBER 1690 and NO SURRENDER, a great wingspan of lettering I hurried under with the messages.

  In a khaki shirt and brass-buckled belt, a demobbed neighbour leaned against our jamb. My father jingled silver deep in both pockets and laughed when the big clicking rosary beads were produced.

  ‘Did they make a Papish of you over there?’

  ‘Oh damn the fear! I stole them for you, Paddy, off the Pope’s dresser when his back was turned.’

  ‘You could harness a donkey with them.’

  Their laughter sailed above my head, a hoarse clamour, two big nervous birds dipping and lifting, making trial runs across a territory.

  The Wanderer

  In a semicircle we toed the line chalked round the master’s desk and on a day when the sun was incubating milktops and warming the side of the jam jar where the bean had split its stitches, he called me forward and crossed my palm with silver. ‘At the end of the holidays this man’s going away to Derry, so this is for him, for winning the scholarship … We all wish him good luck. Now, back to your places.’

  I have wandered far from that ring-giver and would not renegue on this migrant solitude. I have seen halls in flames, hearts in cinders, the benches filled and emptied, the circles of companions called and broken. That day I was a rich young man, who could tell you now of flittings, night-vigils, let-downs, women’s cried-out eyes.

  Cloistered

  Light was calloused in the leaded panes of the college chapel and shafted into the terrazzo rink of the sanctuary. The duty priest tested his diction against pillar and plaster, we tested our elbows on the hard bevel of the benches or split the gold-barred thickness of our missals.

  I could make a book of hours of those six years, a Flemish calendar of rite and pastime set on a walled hill. Look: there is a hillside cemetery behind us and across the river the plough going in a field and in between, the gated town. Here, an obedient clerk kissing a bishop’s ring, here a frieze of seasonal games, and here the assiduous illuminator himself, bowed to his desk in a corner.

  In the study hall my hand was cold as a scribe’s in winter. The supervisor rustled past, sibilant, vapouring into his breviary, his welted brogues unexpectedly secular under the soutane. Now I bisected the line AB, now found my foothold in a main verb in Livy. From my dormer after lights out I revised the constellations and in the morning broke the ice on an enamelled water-jug with exhilarated self-regard.

  The Stations of the West

  On my first night in the Gaeltacht the old woman spoke to me in English: ‘You will be all right.’ I sat on a twilit bedside listening through the wall to fluent Irish, homesick for a speech I was to extirpate.

  I had come west to inhale the absolute weather. The visionaries breathed on my face a smell of soup-kitchens, they mixed the dust of croppies’ graves with the fasting spittle of our creed and anointed my lips. Ephete, they urged. I blushed but only managed a few words.

  Neither did any gift of tongues descend in my days in that upper room when all around me seemed to prophesy. But still I would recall the stations of the west, white sand, hard rock, light ascending like its definition over Ranna-fast and Errigal, Annaghry and Kincasslagh: names portable as altar stones, unleavened elements.

  Incertus

  I went disguised in it, pronouncing it with a soft church-Latin c, tagging it under my efforts like a damp fuse. Uncertain. A shy soul fretting and all that. Expert obeisance.

  Oh yes, I crept before I walked. The old pseudonym lies there like a mouldering tegument.

  from NORTH (1975)

  Mossbawn: Two Poems in Dedication

  for Mary Heaney

  1 Sunlight

  There was a sunlit absence.

  The helmeted pump in the yard

  heated its iron,

  water honeyed

  in the slung bucket

  and the sun stood

  like a griddle cooling

  against the wall

  of each long afternoon.

  So, her hands scuffled

  over the bakeboard,

  the reddening stove

  sent its plaque of heat

  against her where she stood

  in a floury apron

  by the window.

  Now she dusts the board

  with a goose’s wing,

  now sits, broad-lapped,

  with whitened nails

  and measling shins:

  here is a space

  again, the scone rising

  to the tick of two clocks.

  And here is love

  like a tinsmith’s scoop

  sunk past its gleam

  in the meal-bin.

  2 The Seed Cutters

  They seem hundreds of years away. Brueghel,

  You’ll know them if I can get them true.

  They kneel under the hedge in a half-circle

  Behind a windbreak wind is breaking through.

  They are the seed cutters. The tuck and frill

  Of leaf-sprout is on the seed potatoes

  Buried under that straw. With time to kill,

  They are taking their time. Each sharp knife goes

  Lazily halving each root that falls apart

  In the palm of the hand: a milky gleam,

  And, at the centre, a dark watermark.

  Oh, calendar customs! Under the broom

  Yellowing over them, compose the frieze

  With all of us there, our anonymities.

  Funeral Rites

  I

  I shouldered a kind of manhood

  stepping in to lift the coffins

  of dead relations.

  They had been laid out

  in tainted rooms,

  their eyelids glistening,

  their dough-white hands

  shackled in rosary beads.

  Their puffed knuckles

  had unwrinkled, the nails

  were darkened, the wrists

  obediently sloped.

  The dulse-brown shroud,

  the quilted satin cribs:

  I knelt courteously

  admiring it all

  as wax melted down

  and veined the candles,

  the flames hovering

  to the women hovering

  behind me.

  And always, in a corner,

  the coffin lid,

  its nail-heads dressed

  with little gleaming crosses.

  Dear soapstone masks,

  kissing their igloo brows

  had to suffice

  before the nails were sunk

  and the black glacier

  of each funeral

  pushed away.

  II

  Now as news comes in

  of each neighbourly murder

  we pine for ceremony,

  customary rhythms:

  the temperate footsteps

  of a cortège, winding past

  each blinded home.

  I would restore

  the great chambers of Boyne,

  prepare a sepulchre

  under the cupmarked stones.

  Out of side-streets and by-roads

  purring family cars

  no
se into line,

  the whole country tunes

  to the muffled drumming

  of ten thousand engines.

  Somnambulant women,

  left behind, move

  through emptied kitchens

  imagining our slow triumph

  towards the mounds.

  Quiet as a serpent

  in its grassy boulevard,

  the procession drags its tail

  out of the Gap of the North

  as its head already enters

  the megalithic doorway.

  III

  When they have put the stone

  back in its mouth

  we will drive north again

  past Strang and Carling fjords,

  the cud of memory

  allayed for once, arbitration

  of the feud placated,

  imagining those under the hill

  disposed like Gunnar

  who lay beautiful

  inside his burial mound,

  though dead by violence

  and unavenged.

  Men said that he was chanting

  verses about honour

  and that four lights burned